Post Partum Depression: Your Random Thoughts

Abana

My share:

I suffered a certain depression around a month after my eldest was born. I've read stuff that moms seldom hate their babies after childbirth as a sign of depression haunts them. In my case, no. I adored my baby so much that getting back to work, or being able to focus on other stuff became a problem- a phase in my Post Partum Depression. After my maternity leave, I've been scouring the internet and researching on something as a home based job so I don't need to leave my precious baby. But having an online job won't compensate me the way my present company does so, to make the long story short, my wishful-thinking state has ended and I had to get back to work. I was always crying, very moody and me and DH did have lots of fights. Lots of incident reports were served because the instances of my absence were rising. But it's like an abuse to me, being forced to go to work and all I wanna do is to be beside my baby. Reality sets in, there's loans to pay and bills too. Baby needs and immunizations which do require money. Friends and family are supportive but the realization should really come from me, the responsible parent. So that's it. Months of depression was put on a halt.

So now, what's your story?